About Me
I'm James, and that's my daughter Cassandra. I'm the bigger one. We live in Santa Rosa, California, and we both have male pattern baldness. Cassandra will effortless grow out of hers. I, on the other hand, have a lot work to do.
I was fortunate to be blessed with Male Pattern Baldness (MPB), because I would never have learned anything about alternative health, or the extent to which we've all been deceived by the gigantic lies of the world; some of which will be revealed on this website. I have also blessed with a baby girl with an MPB growth pattern to help me awaken others to the truth about male pattern hair loss. I feel kind of bad for Cassandra, because she's getting caught in the divine intervention cross-hairs a bit. But, by the time she is aware of what an ugly hairline looks like, she'll have long had a thick luscious one. So, she'll be fine. By the way, for what it's worth, my wife, Simone, does not have MPB. She has a flat forehead and a straight across hairline, as pretty much all adult females do.
Anyway, while Cassandra still has an androgenic alopecia growth pattern, I'm going to use her to disprove the concept of androgenic alopecia, i.e. male hormone sensitivity related hair loss, because baby girls can't have androgenic alopecia. Yet, they can have the exact same and hair growth patterns as adult who supposedly have androgenic alopecia. The connection between male hair loss patterns and infant hair growth patterns is obvious once you know what to look for.
If any dermatologist saw a close up image of the top of her head, unable to see her cute fat cheeks and pristine baby skin to recognize that it's an infant female, then they would diagnose her with androgenic alopecia. It's a classic male loss pattern. She would be prescribed vasodilators and DHT blockers. However, upon revealing that it is an infant girl, then the growth pattern would be attributed to being developmental and genetic. I don't buy it. How can the same growth pattern be hormonal and genetic in one human, but "developmental" and genetic in another? The impression it gives me is that classifying something as "genetic" or "developmental" basically means that the person giving the prognosis doesn't know what the hell is going on.
It cannot be randomly developmental that some infants have normal juvenile growth patterns, and others do not. Similarly, it cannot be randomly genetic that some males have normal juvenile growth patterns, and others do not, and happen to have the exact same growth patterns as the developmentally random ones in infants. There has to be a common link, and that common link is skull shape.
No human suffers from poor hair growth due to genetics, genetic sensitivity to hormones, or even lack of blood-flow, or fibrosis, as claimed by proponents of natural hair loss reversal theories. Rather, it is purely the lack of sharp contours that separate the forehead, where hair does not grow, from the other parts of the skull, where hair does grow, that commonly develop in infants and adult males due to a round and bulging forehead. For example, compare Cassandra to a man with "androgenic alopecia".
That's Matt Holliday, formerly of the Colorado Rockies. Good hitter, super bald. Even in his twenties, he was this bald. It's because of that fat bulge on the front of his head. Cassandra also has a bulge on her forehead. Hers is lower, which is why she has more hair on the top of her head than Holliday, thankfully. Otherwise, we'd have to shave her head every day like him. Anyway, the point is that DHT and genetic sensitivity is a big fat lie. Just look at their big fat heads. Something is making Holliday's head bulge out. The reason for Cassandra's bulge is developmental. The hair growth pattern is not developmental, but her skull shape is, it's to accommodate rapid brain growth, most infants have such a bulge, and the skull shape determines the hair growth pattern.
For Matt Holliday, and the rest of us, the skull bulge is not developmental. Rather, it's an indication of disorder. Something else is making our skulls bulge out, and that something is the source of MPB. That's what I want to figure out with this website. I have some ideas, none of them are scientific.
I'm not a fan of science. Science detaches us from our observations, experiences, and inferences, which are meant to be our guides in life. In doing so we give up our divine and innate healing abilities, i.e. our power. What's more powerless than having a genetic disease? I can't do anything about my genetics. Unless, I take some miracle chemical compounds developed by special people with titles, degrees, and know about all of these molecules, enzymes, hormone binders, and other things I've never heard about nor will ever understand. But, it's all bull shit. It doesn't even work. I tried it all. Their drugs don't stop or reverse hair loss, long-term. It might give you a boost for a few months, or a year if you're lucky; but, it's "effectiveness" fades over time. It's probably true for every other disease too, because taking drugs doesn't get to the root of the issue of a disease in a body that is a self-healing and self-correcting brilliantly designed machine. Why is my skull changing over time? Why do I have cancer? The body doesn't give you random diseases on a genetic whim. Rather, the disease is there to HELP. It gives us information that we need to correct our course of action.
All this is to say, science is not going to help you. I tried all of their drugs for 13 years. They didn't even stop my MPB from progressing, let alone regrow any hair. I started putting topical minoxidil on my head when I was 21 (2006) and didn't stop until I was 34 (2019). Why did it not work? Minoxidil will not stop your head from rounding and bulging out. The more it rounds and bulges out, the harder it will be to get blood to the newly rounded and bulged areas with a vasodilator like minoxidil. "Well, that's why you have to take propecia too, because it's a 5-alpha reductase DHT inhibitor." - I started taking finasteride when I was 23 (2008) and didn't stop until I was 34. 11 years on propecia, and I still lost hair. I even spiked my routine with dutasteride for a few years. It didn't help. It just made me have to urinate when even the slightest amount of fluid was in my bladder.
Why didn't propecia work for me? My head shape kept rounding and bulging. I also did the laser comb, nizoral 1% and 2% (even natural formulations), RU58841 (making that stuff was like being back in chem lab), tretinoin, prox-n, tricomin, stemoxydine, and even natural stuff like onion-garlic-apple cider vinegar, castor oil, vitamin supplementation, massages, and microneedling. Some of the natural stuff I still do; but, they will not reverse or prevent MPB as a standalone treatment because they don't prevent a changing skull shape. And if you have slick bald receded areas or a crown, then the cause of your hair loss is a changing skull shape, no exceptions.
This page was supposed to be about me! I guess I got a little carried away. Go to the home page for more detail on what I believe causes skull shape to expand and change over time. As for me, I think that the most useful information to the reader of this website is that I did not grow up weird. I was born on Long Island, NY. I went to Catholic school, but we were not a very faith-based family. We just had fun. I went on vacations, I played sports, I ate pizza, I went out to restaurants, I watched TV, and I had friends who were also normal kids. But, when as I grew into teenage years I started getting all of these negative feelings about my self-image. Then, my hairline started receding in high school and it amplified those negative feelings.
Into early adulthood, I had to manage a negative self image while figuring out what to do with my life. I was very strong academically, but I have never done well career-wise and financially. This has weighed on me for most of my adult years. "I had so much potential! People expected a lot more from me. But, what can I do now?" These were my thoughts as I bounced from actuary, to trying be a sit-com writer, to working at my uncle's car wash, to grad school (big expensive mistake), to failing as financial services rep in NYC, and finally settling on being a middle school math teacher for the past 6 years, and a high school teacher for two years prior.
I was Calculus student of the year in 2003 at my high school, I got a B.A. from UCSD in Mathematics and Economics, an M.A. from NYU, I figured out how to code this website from zero knowledge (it probably shows), and most of my day was spent teaching kids how to add "5X" to both sides of an equation. I realize that this is coming across as pretty elitist. Sorry. There is nothing wrong with being a pre-algebra teacher, if that's who you were meant to be. It's not beneath me to serve others. In fact, it's my duty. But, I am simply not meant to serve others in this way. I believe that my analytical God-given talents are better applied as a healer and a truth teller, starting with myself. I need healing too.
I was fired from my last teaching job for having an emotional outburst with a 7th grade class. I was trying to grind through a lecture on the Pythagorean Theorem on a Friday during the last period of the day and, oddly, the 12 year olds in my class were a more interested in their side conversations than what a2 + b2 is equal to. I tried to reason with them, I tried ringing the stupid bell that is supposed to get their attention, and finally I just shouted "Will you be quiet!"
It was private school. The parents pay too much money to for me to yell at their kids. I got fired 2 weeks later. Best day of my life. I was dejected and aggrieved. But, it was the sign that I needed to take my life in a different direction. I'm not the angry grumpy old man who yells at 12 year olds. That's not who I want to be. It made me realize that I'm not angry with the kids. Rather, I'm angry with myself. I'm angry because I have been doing a job that is not aligned with who I truly am. And the disappointment in my lack of courage to pursue who I truly am will continue to manifest in emotional outbursts with these kids, or with my family, if I continue to do this kind of work for money. Furthermore, it's probably making my skull expand and my hair fall out.
This is getting deeper than what I intended, which is great. I want you to understand, when reading through my website, that this is who I am. I made this website, with some massive help from above, of course. This website is me having faith in higher power and pursuing who that higher power created me to be, which I have hitherto failed at having the courage, or the inner wisdom, to pursue. This website is a course correction.
I am not a professional. This is not a professional website. It is blunt. It is crude. It's a little bizarre at times. But, it's 100% real - and I apologize for all of the typos. This whole website might as well be the "about me" page. It's truly a culmination of everything I have learned through failing to correct this seemingly vain disease, which actually cuts deep down to the essence of my disappointment in myself for living in my life in fear. Fear, along with the disappointment, anger, worry, and grief that come with it, have brought me to this point in my life with this amount of hair on my head. This website is a dedication to overcoming all of those poisonous emotions that have afflicted me for decades. It's the biggest obstacle that I have to overcome in hair loss, and in my own spiritual development, as the two are intertwined.
This disease has me on a spiritual journey. Like I said, I did not grow up with faith. I did not believe there was a God. I did not believe in Heaven. Why would I? I'm logical. I'm math and science inclined. There's no Heaven up there. It's just atmosphere and space. And there's no Creation. We evolved from bacteria over billions of years. It's an infinite universe, and we're a random oasis. There is no God here. We're alone. We live and die. That's it. Well... that's assuming all that "science" stuff is true. If it's not, which I now strongly suspect that it isn't (Why? Because I'm logic, math, and science inclined), then there must be some character in charge here trying to deceive us, as claimed in the Bible, who is the greatest trickster that the world has ever known, because this would be one hell of a trick to pull off.
Let's assume, for argument sake, that this trickster exists (Does he? Does the phone in your pocket have a bitten apple symbol on it), then (1) there must be a God to balance the whole situation out, right? I don't live in hell hole. This place is beautiful. There must be a benevolent force here along with, and more powerful than, the other guy. And, (2), this trickster's best strategy to to maintain this mass delusion would be for me, and everyone else, to not know there is a God, how to communicate with that God, to have no idea of who we actually are and what power we possess when connected to that God, and what he put us on this Earth to do. That way, we live in fear. A fearful slave is a good slave. And a good slave lives a safe and mediocre life.
I don't resent Satan. He's just part of the game. God put him on the Earth for a reason. It makes the game more challenging. It makes us all the more have to face our fears, doubts, and insecurities. In overcoming them is what makes us stronger, and God is there is help us through it. It's what any good father does. God does not helicopter parent. He's always there if we need him, but he's willing to let us struggle for our own good. Satan is a tool. He's here to make us struggle and panic by having us believe that all we have this one temporary life. So we cling to it with every bit of mortal strength that we have. We are not going to do anything risky or try to buck the system. We live a safe life working our slave jobs, eating our gruel, numbing our brains with devil approved media, enjoying a few vacations, and then die. We don't transform. We don't live in any way like Jesus did. Why would we? He's not the son of God. There's no God. He's just a character in a fairytale. Good! Because the trickster's greatest fear is a mob of Jesuses rising up and challenging his reign with truth and fearlessness.
The trickster's greatest weakness, and our greatest strength, is the truth and us living our truth. He's built an incredible and impressive system to keep us enslaved, but it's a weak system. It's actually extremely delicate because it is founded on lies. Any such system is. Once people see the lie, it snaps them right out of it and they start to revolt. That's what happened to me. And that's what's happening to me.
This website is part of the revolt. It's a buck to the system. It's about getting out of Egypt and slavery, and making our way to the Promised Land. And I'm leaving NOW. We must tell the truth and live the truth. That truth is God manifested in many forms inside of us. My truth is doing this... probably. I'm still working on my communication with God. I don't know who's talking to me sometimes. In any case, this website is dedicated to the truth and serving others. Jesus came as servant to show us how it's done. I'm no Jesus, but I can tell the truth on this website. As for the service... we'll see. I don't want to oversell myself. I haven't performed any miracles yet. I'm working on it. Like the Bible says though, "with God, all things are possible". That has to apply to hair loss. However, we have some deep inner work to do first. Now, as always, let's grow some hair.